Wednesday, July 23, 2008
it's official

"I LOVE YOU, PIG.... I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH.... maybe we're really meant for each other... naging tayo lang sa maling panahon.... perhaps one day,  when the right time comes, we'll be together again... "

yung pag-iisip ng idea na lang na yun ang nakakapagpagaan ng loob ko right now...


if i die, promise me you'll never forget me....

pig and i broke up....

i guess receiving a message saying that he gives up, can be called an official break up already... especially for our case... we hardly see each other... my fault...

i felt really really bad after leaving a bitter message for him... i told him how much i hate him and that he's the biggest disappointment i had... i really feel bad.... the last thing i want is for us to break up.. and the pinaka-last (last na talaga) thing i want is ending our relationship unhappy and in a not ok situation....

i really feel bad... i feel so stupid for doing that... i love him... i really do...

i can't blame him for breaking up with me. i'm the worst girlfriend a person can ever have.... i admit that... i actually salute him for being patient with me for a year... for trying to understand me....

everything's my fault....


I REALLY LOVE YOU AND I STILL LOVE YOU, just so you know....

Posted at 08:59 pm by keeper16
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Sunday, July 20, 2008
everything's sooooo wrong

how i wish the brazillian's prediction came true.... it would spare me from the pain i'm feeling right now.. i really feel that everything in my life is so wrong...

i'm taking the wrong course.... i have the wrong set of friends.... i'm in the wrong school....

the only right thing about my life is my relationship... good thing my boyfriend loves me....

i swear i dont deserve this kind of life. i deserve something better... gawd!

i really want to die.. earth, eat me now!

Posted at 04:40 pm by keeper16
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Friday, July 18, 2008
stress

road the van a while ago with some friends.... we were on our way to the home for the elders for our community service... my ears almost bled because of the annoying things i heard.... people kept ranting about how stressful this term is for them. they kept complaining about the stress they're feeling....

HELLO??? try taking modulars.... at least they pass.... i have never passed any exam for this term and i'm currently taking my 4th module/subject already.... i have to answer 30+++ problems every night for the next day's class... i have to study for a test about a certain topic and answer problems for another topic... i have to attend a 4 hour class everyday, take at least 2 exams every week... and do org stuff 24/7... right after my class, i have to run to different offices and process activities. and if things are not going well, i have to take the blame. i cannot ask for assistance... i'm all by my self....

at least my friends get to go out and have fun. i don't... because, apparently, my class is from monday til saturday. my sunday? i spend it doing homeworks and studying for the class on monday...

friends complain that they don't have a life anymore.... they should think again...


Posted at 08:20 pm by keeper16
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death

is it possible that you want to die







yet you are afraid of death?






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Monday, May 12, 2008
you'll always be my baby..

pig decided to end everything last night. it was not anymore about the date i cancelled last week. it was more deeper than that. we have just realized that we are 2 different people with different interests... we look for something different in a relationship...

it's hard for me to let him go.. i still love him. and i know that he feels the same thing. basta, it's really hard..

haayyyy....

i just want to share this video by david cook. i can relate to the song... as in sobra!!

always be my baby - david cook





We were as one babe

For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby

Posted at 04:36 pm by keeper16
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Sunday, May 11, 2008
handwriting analysis

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Welcome keeper16, here is your handwriting analysis.

keeper16 is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.

keeper16 will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls keeper16 an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. keeper16 is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

keeper16 is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

 People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, keeper16 doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

keeper16 is sensitive to criticism about her ideas and philosophies. She will sometimes worry what people will think if she tells them what she believes in. This doesn't mean she won't talk, or that she feels ashamed. It merely means she is sensitive to what others think, regarding her beliefs.

keeper16 is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

 In reference to keeper16's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When keeper16 slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. keeper16 can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

keeper16 is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. keeper16 basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

keeper16 is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

keeper16 has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

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i can say that all those are true!! wow!




Posted at 06:57 pm by keeper16
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Wednesday, May 07, 2008
sizzling....

i have to have a break from all the crying... my eyes can't take it anymore... i'm hurt... i don't think i can do much about it at this point in time. he's really really mad at me and doesn't want to talk to me. i don't want to ruin his day. it's his bday today so maybe we need some time off for ourselves for a while...

while my eyes are having a break from all the tears, i was surfing in youtube and got the chance to see the adam sevani plus acdc dance battle with miley cyrus and her friend... adam is so hot!!!!!!!! wow!! i want to dance like him... he's so appealing... if you don't agree with me, you can leave now. hahaha!!!


the challenge:their response to miley's dance video...he's so cute!!

Posted at 08:18 pm by keeper16
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will you still love me in the morning?

i love you so much, pig!! :(

Posted at 03:56 pm by keeper16
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happy birthday

happy birthday, pig! i really hope we're ok na. im so sorry about what happened last night. i just snapped. i didn't know how to handle my feelings well last night. im really sorry. hope you forgive me.

i love you so much!!! if ever you want to let go of me, i guess i'll just have to accept your decision. how i wish i could change everything.

happy birthday! i hope you're having fun today.. it's your day. try to forget our problem, for a while.

i want to hug and kiss you. if only i could...

Posted at 03:54 pm by keeper16
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Tuesday, May 06, 2008
drifting apart

i have to be honest with you. i'm slowly losing my trust on you...

i've been thinking about it and realized that it's BOTH OUR fault.

i know i'm uber paranoid to the point that i can have an imaginary girl for you. i am paranoid that you either have a new one or that you're still together with your past. i'm mad at myself for being crazy. i guess that's what i could call karma.

as you know, i was a playgirl back then, so i know the "styles" to hide that kind of secret. When i think about the things you do, i compare them to the actions of my old self. how you react to certain things, how you are whenever you are with me, and other stuff that could help me decipher your actions. just so i would find out if like the old me, you also have another one.

you're not helping me build my trust on you. you are even doing the opposite thing! you're making me lose my trust!!!! i realized that you haven't really let go of your past. you kept her pictures on your phone until i found out and saw it.... you never deleted those pictures until i saw them! what if i never saw those pictures, will you ever get rid of them? maybe not.

you always keep secretsfrom me.... what am i to you? don't you love me? don't you trust me? why do you have to hide secrets from me... am i not your girlfriend? why do you have to hide your wallet from me? no matter how many times i bug you about it, you wouldn't budge... :(

i don't like this kind of feeling...

I LOVE YOU..
I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU..

if you only know how much hurt i'm feeling right now.. smiles can be faked you know... i have to pretend that i'm alright so you'll be alright. i don't like seeing you  mad/sad, that's why i pretended a while ago that i was alright... also because i know that you'll get of me if i'll show you how i really feel.. you don't like it whenever i'm whiney or hot tempered.. i'm sorry...

i love you so much!!! i love you, pig :@)

Posted at 08:43 pm by keeper16
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